•Intentionality: the fact of being deliberate or purposive.
•Breakthrough: a sudden, dramatic, and important discovery or development.
•Deliverance: the action of being rescued or set free.
Those are the words that I believe God has for me for this year.
There are certain struggles that I’ve had in my life that God put an expiration date to in December 2019. This year, is like really my year. For the past several years I’ve been on hamster wheel trying to move forward from certain things, something I didn’t even realize was happening. I kept struggling, hearing from God, nothing would change and I would go back to the struggling again. That kept on happening over again for years. I started to believe at one point that nothing would ever really change for me. I was conflicted because I knew what God wanted for me and what He had in store for me, but at the same time my life was not reflecting any of that. Every time I would try to make my life look like what He wanted, everything would backfire or crumble apart. I was trying to make something miraculous and supernatural happen from my own strength, with my own resources. I was trying to do something that only God can do, all by myself, and each time I would fail. I started coming to terms with that last year. I started realizing what I was doing, I picked up on the patterns. Although, if I’m going to be honest, the thought had crossed my mind before but I was in such denial that I tossed it to the back of my mind and didn’t want to accept that. I was in denial because there were things I didn’t want to let go of and there were things I didn’t want to reveal. And in order to move forward, you have to let go of certain things sometimes, and sometimes you have to expose certain things too. And I was so not ready to.
“Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer of faith will save the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven.”
James 5:14-15 ESV
It’s like, if I have a huge cut but don’t want to go to the doctor because I don’t want to say how I got the cut in the first place so I’m sitting there, slowly bleeding out, the cut is getting infected and I’m starting to get a fever, I’m even about to have to get my leg chopped off. All the while, all I have to do is get over myself, let go of the shame and guilt, expose my wound and get healed. I don’t have to lose my leg at all. I don’t have to sit there wondering what’s gonna happen with me. God wants me to walk but I can’t. I kept trying to clean up my cut myself without the proper equipment, equipment that only God has. I kept trying to get up and walk when I was dizzy from the infection and covered in blood. I’m not sure how much more I can stretch out this wound analogy for you, but I’m sure you get my point by now. I couldn’t fix myself up, I needed to go to the Healer.
“I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears.”
Psalms 34:4 ESV
Throughout my life, God has given me promises and, what I like to call, “words.” Words are pretty much directions and/or encouragements to help me during certain phases in my life. He has also given me visions, which I interpret them as a visual of what He has promised or said, a visual of His intentions. There’s also a very special visual He gave me in order to reveal something quite magnificent, but that is for another blog. This year I will see a lot of those promises and words come to pass. Because I was honest with myself, and surrendered the things that have been hurting me, and exposed what it was that hurting me. I went to the Healer. I took the power away from those things, intentionally, and that caused a breakthrough to happen. And that will cause a whole deliverance to happen.
“”Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.”
Isaiah 43:18-19 ESV
“With intentionality, I will have breakthroughs that will birth deliverance.” -Krys
•Krys• 